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a new year awaits

2009-01-01T14:19:00.000+08:00

happy new year to all!

hope it'll be a bang for all in the year 2009 or the year of the ox. heh

aite guys. take good care and see ya soon.

cheers~

[15]

it's the same

2008-12-09T22:15:00.001+08:00

from one halloween to another.
from one christmas to another.
from one new year to another.

it's still the same.

[14]

updates

2008-11-10T22:05:00.001+08:00

alrighty, a little update of what's happening recently.

aite. got into nie already. heh. surprise surprise. been trying to find a job but too bad, nothing's suitable for me so might as well apply for teaching since i've got some experience. not bad. my very 1st interview and i got the job. heh. nice. hope it's smooth sailing for me when i get in. still need to sort out some paperwork before it's finalised. yup. will update again.

think that's all for now. gotta go guys. ciaoz.

[13]

changes

2008-10-29T20:46:00.001+08:00

bored and damn free

something's gotta change

[12]

tired

2008-09-21T23:19:00.002+08:00

alrighty, back after some disappearance. hehe. some updates on me. just had a tiring wk. been coaching everyday. pui. tired shit but too bad, the income is too good to resist. hehe. need to find more classes to as to generate more money to sustain myself ah. another 2 more wks and i'll be retranced. that's sad mans. still don't know what i wanna do after i get retranched. haha. shall go ponder about it over this 2 weeks.

on another note, she had finally passed her practical driving test. felt so so happy for her. 3rd time lucky eh. means she won't have to spend unnecessary money on such things anymore. hehe.

aite peeps. think that's all for now. shall update soon if i got time. haha. ciaoz.

[11]

back

2008-09-12T14:08:00.002+08:00

hi peeps... i'm finally back after a long hiatus. haha. recently been real busy with god-knows-what stuffs. have been relieving classes in school as well as coaching. starting to have more of my own classes which is good as i can earn more money from them! heh.

had a really good time last weekend. celebrated her birthday at somewhere nice. glad that she liked what i've prepared for her. lucky that my efforts didn't go down the drain. heh. -G.Silu-

so far life's been great for me. but all things have to come to an end. i'll be ending my relief job officially on oct 3. sads. means no more pe with the students and no more extra income! need to really find a job mans. arghs! crap. so for now, adioz

[11]

crap

2008-08-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

when things are farked up, just fark it

[10]

faber drive - when i'm with you

2008-07-30T21:20:00.001+08:00

Saw you walk in to the room,
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe, am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day
half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough,
but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back
to show you that
I'm keeping the promise i made

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you whenever you're not around
when I kiss you
I still get butterflies
years from now,
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

(na na na na na nananananana)
(na na na na na nananananana)

Yeah, we've had our ups and downs,
but we've always worked 'em out
Babe, am I ever glad we got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough,
nothing feels right
so I'm coming back to show you that I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you, whenever your not around
When I kiss you,
I still get butterflies
years from now
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

[SHORT INSTRUMENTAL BREAK]

Whatever it takes
I'm not gonna break the promise I made

When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
'cause i miss you
Yeah

When I'm with you,
I'll make every second count
cause I miss you, whenever your not around
When I kiss you,
I still get butterflies
years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you (na na na na na nananananana)
When I'm with you (na na na na na nananananana)
When I'm with you (na na na na na nananananana)
When I'm with you (na na na na na nananananana)
(nananananana)
(nananananana)

back...

2008-07-28T21:09:00.003+08:00

aite aite. a lil insight of what i've been up to recently. had been relief teaching pe at this sec school. everything's real fun there. the students especially. managed to build some rapport with some of them which is good in a way since i'm only a relief teacher! hehe. nonetheless, life's been great these few weeks.

another note is that she has started her first day on her new job. things are looking good for her at the moment except that tp blemish. boo. hope everything turns out fine for her. yup. guess that's all for now. will update soon if i can.

ciaoz..

[9]

busy busy

2008-07-11T23:14:00.003+08:00

oritey, not sure where to start from. just a lil update since the last post. just came back from my short trip to bangkok. was a nice one. bought a few things over there. oh mans. the things there are freaking cheap or rather much cheaper than things over there. shopping paradise mans. haha. went there to live in luxury but now living like a pauper when back here. hehe

another note is that i've started some relief teaching to pass time. taught only pe as i'm only relieving my cousin who's on maternity leave. just ended my first week there. pretty fun i should say. many different and funny characters in the school. at least there's something that i can look forward to now and to keep me occupied. hehe.

i'm also happy for her as she's got a job now. at least there's stable income and a job for her. so need to strive hard now. hee. aite peeps. that's all for now. gotta hit the sack. ciaoz

[9]

random post

2008-06-30T12:41:00.002+08:00

just a random post. nothing much happening for me nowadays except busy concentrating on a project that i've got last month. finally it's ending soon. it's been a long & tiring period. sighs. on the other hand, i'm heading to bangkok for a short trip over the weekends. finally i can take a break from all the things in singapore. hehe. gonna shop like mad once i reach there mans. shopping paradise! yea. but pocket's gonna burn a real big hole once i return. heh.

think that's all for now. couldn't think of anything to blog. adios peeps.

[8]

black friday

2008-06-13T17:51:00.002+08:00

so it's a black friday afterall. she failed her tp test today. felt so helpless when i see tears rolling down her cheeks. felt that at that point of time, i cant do anything to help her. sighs. hope her second attempt will be a better one and pass it.

[8]

always be my baby

2008-05-30T12:41:00.002+08:00

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

sick and tired

2008-05-29T22:42:00.001+08:00

all the time and effort into it.

but

will everything come to naught?

[7]

nothing

2008-05-07T21:23:00.001+08:00

no say
no position
shadow
secretive

NOTHING

counting

2008-04-30T13:50:00.001+08:00

6 months and still counting.
when will that day ever come?

when you look me in the eyes

2008-04-11T01:04:00.001+08:00

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

chris brown - with you

2008-04-09T03:47:00.001+08:00

???

2008-04-07T19:10:00.001+08:00

the long road down is tiring and painful.

cao ge - ai ai

2008-03-29T14:39:00.001+08:00

quite an interesting mv. enjoy.

cherish

2008-03-29T14:23:00.001+08:00

cherish what you have now cause you'll never know when they'll be gone

i will

2008-03-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

I will lend you my shoulder when you need to cry.
I will take care of you when you are unwell.
I will be your sunshine when the sky's dark.
I will be there when you need me.
I will stand by you when things go wrong.

Most importantly,
I will love you with all my heart.
Yes, i will.

update updates

2008-03-04T01:07:00.002+08:00

hahaha..been not around for quite some time ah. hahas. basically, i've been busy with lotsa stuffs. went for a short trip to batam. spending quality time with someone special. at the same time, been trying to rest as much as i can in between classes. pretty much enjoying what i have now. just that i need more money to support so many things. so meantime gotta work harder! jia you!

gong xi gong xi

2008-02-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

hey hey. the lunar new year is coming soon. can't wait for it mans. it's just a few days away for some extra income. heehee.

gong xi gong xi everyone!

24

2008-01-21T13:19:00.000+08:00

oh mans. i'm 24 today. boo~ feels so so old suddenly. it's like i'm almsot a quater of a century old already mans. bleah. people used to say that when you are past the age of 21, your age will increase real fast. damn! i totally agree with that statement mans. boo~

so now i'm 24. there's really nothing for me to look forward to except my career. sighs. still in a mess mans. need to sort things out asap. meantime still coaching as usual. earning some good bucks. heeheee.

thanks for the mini celebration last night. really appreciate it. one of the best i ever had. and especially to you, thanks!

tiring sunday

2008-01-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

boo. sunday supposed to be a rest and relax day for many but mine is far more than relaxing for me. don't know why i'm so freaking shagged today. it's just like one of my many sundays. class in the morning at 9 then in the noon from 2.30 to 7. but just can't figure out why i'm just so so tired. bleah.

been doing lotsa thinking recently. mainly about my future. i still don't know where my future lies till now. how crappy it is. turning 24 soon but still no accomplishment. wth mans. really needa sort this out asap. can't really waste any more time. what i can do now is just carry on my part time coaching and see how it goes from there. pui~

aite peeps. gotta hit the sack. ciaoz & take care.

buckcherry - sorry

2008-01-10T14:53:00.001+08:00

new year new beginning?

2008-01-09T12:55:00.001+08:00

happy belated new year to all. hehe. been busy with i-don't-know-what-i'm-busy-with stuffs. thus, resulting the late greetings. heh. an update into my life so far. ORD last month, so have been slacking for a month plus already. damn. in which have been coaching swimming part time to sustain myself and my spendings. i guess i really need a stable job to provide me with a stable income if not it's hard to carry on like this.

as for elsewhere, guess i've just fallen into a ditch or sth. unable to climb up. it's already in too deep. don't know what's the next step for me. sighs. that sucks.

aite peeps. gotta go for now. ciaoz~

festive mood

2007-12-24T16:55:00.000+08:00

merry xmas to all... enjoy~

Shayne Ward - Breathless

2007-12-13T12:32:00.000+08:00

it's over

2007-12-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

finally it's all over! yes. i mean my 2 freaking years of national service. even though there were fond memories of it but it's still bullshit. anyway, just happy to get back my pink ic. heehee. been 2 years since i surrendered them to the green nation.

so what's in store for me next? i really do not have a clue yet. i used to think that i've got my future all planned out. be it career or other stuffs. but now everything is in a blur. sighs. so i guess i gotta take everything as it comes and see how it goes. so meantime been trying to take up more classes to keep myself busy and to earn more money. hehe. to support my liabilites as well. heh.

_confused

broke broke

2007-11-27T00:27:00.000+08:00

hais... feeling so so broke now mans... just now bought a deathnote figurine at 40 bucks!!! don't know what's going through my head when i bought it... supposed to buy it for my car but it's too tall!! arghz... waste money ah... due to such things ah, that's why i'm so freaking broke now mans... hais...

somebody please plant me a money tree!!!

Timbaland ft One Republic - Apologize

2007-11-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

OASIS - don't go away

2007-11-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

vroom vroom vroom

2007-11-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

pica pica...

cheers~

new start

2007-10-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

embarking on a new start after a wrecked week... things starting to change for the brighter side... hope it can maintain like this...

been busy with stuffs as usual... swimming... camp... programmes... phew... hope it's not taking a toll on me... been managing them quite well i guess... hehe... starting to see light at the end of the tunnel for me... don't know if the project that i'm involved will bear fruit in the end... so just gotta pray that everything will turn out well... god bless us then...

[45 days left]

wrecked

2007-10-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

this week is gonna be a wrecked week for me manz... not yet even midweek and yet so many things happened to me... wth is going on recently... sighs... gonna get stressed out soon manz... needa go find some place peaceful & tranquil to sort things out...

`crap

wrong place, wrong time?

2007-09-26T00:06:00.000+08:00

what a forgettable weekend i've had which i don't wanna talk about...

exhausted

2007-09-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

what a week for me. been coaching like crazy! hehe. coached on tues, wed, fri, sat & today!!! then plus tomorrow, tues & wed again. whoa. don't know if there's anyone out there like my kind of life. sucks totally. but what to do. gotta earn money. sighz. gotta work hard now for a better future for me.

kinda have my future sorted out already, although there're still some uncertainties. hope they're resolved asap. aite. gotta go get some rest now cause tomorrow's monday! urghz!! monday blues. *sheesh*

almost...

2007-09-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

gonna fall sick soon... dammit... can't do much things when you're sick... guess it's due to the weather and constantly in and out of the pool... hope will be alright soon... will be stopping my weekday classes after this month... need some time off swimming... can't be coaching almost everyday... sooner or later i gonna burn out from it... hope i won't get to that stage... sighz...

frustrations

2007-09-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

everything's frustrating for me these few days... dammit...

back here...

2007-08-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

finally im back here again... heehee... managed to change my blogskin after so long... heh... this is my maiden attempt on designing blogskins so please please pardon me for the ugly skins i put up... though this skin is not completed yet, i decided to put it up & see if it's nice... hehe.. so feel free to leave any comments for me regarding the skins yea... will try to change once every now & then... yup yup... that's all so far... other than that, been busy with my daily stuffs such as ns and coaching... now i've taken up lotsa classes... coaching up to 5 times a week... it's good money but it's real hard to maintain the passion i have for it... really needa take it slowly if not i will burn out easily from it and thus, lose my passion in coaching... sighz... hmmm... guess there's nothing much else... will blog again then.. peace out~

[it never left your side]

finally...

2007-08-09T22:22:00.001+08:00

hadn't been blogging for quite some time ya. my bad my bad. been busy wif lotsa stuffs recently. taking up quite a few classes now, including weekdays. what to do. need more dough to sustain my spendings. gotta watch my finance tightly manz. haha.

woke up early today even though slept quite late last night. went in sentosa with my friend and his family. had a lil get-together. everything's good. everybody just relax, have a couple of drinks and chit chat. the feeling's great. needa have more such gatherings with more close friends to catch up with one another man. hehe. i'm going sentosa tomorrow again! haha. was there last sat, today and tomorrow! 3 times into sentosa, 3 times hitting the 3 different beaches. hehe. going in for my camp's anniversary celebrations at tanjong beach. after that, gonna coach in the evening. then, might be hitting the club in the night. so think i'll have a super long day tomorrow. so gotta go yea. adios~

2007-07-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

aitey, just got back from pulau besar yesterday. yes, it's pulau besar again! haha. been there for the 3rd time this year. sighs. some might say isn't it bored going back to the same place over and over again? but guess it's the things that you can do there that gives you the pleasure. this time round, it's a fun and laughter filled trip cause of the companions that went for the trip.

starting to like fishing. used to dislike fishing cause i don't have the patience for it. but now, i'm getting HOOKED on it. haha. even bought fishing rod and the essential equipment to start this lil new hobby. haha. hope it can keep me company when i'm lonely. hehe. took a few snapshots over there. will upload to my flickr account when i've got the time to do so. so will update here again.

aite then. gotta make a move for camp soon. ciaoz & peace out~

2007-07-20T15:00:00.000+08:00

finally ended my course today. crappy course. haha. did learnt things that we already knew. but nonetheless, it's good cause we can stay out. hehe. that's the only plus point of this week. other than that, nothing much bout this dull week. hehe. now looking forward to next weekend. going to pulau besar again. haha. 3rd time so far. going there to enjoy myself thoroughly. forget bout all the troubles and frustrations that have been inside me. too many things happening already, starting to lose my direction. hope there's something at the end of the road for me.

i heart you.

2007-07-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

arghz! so freaking troubled now. dammit manz. can't take it. need to go de-stress. so many decisions to make. sighs. gonna bang my head against the wall already manz. everything gotta do with my future. my seemingly bleak future. really unsure of what's up for met after i ORD. freak it.

2007-07-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

finally completed the parade yesterday. so had a half day off today and tomorrow full day off. yay! haha. went out with my camp mates the whole day and caught TRANSFORMERS! damn was it a good movie. it's worth every cent of the ticket price even though today's monday and it's the cheapest. haha. but it's really a damn good show. with the special effects, everything and all. cool movie that all guys gotta watch. i don't mind catching it again. gonna get the dvd when they're out in stores. heh. can be a collectible item manz. went shopping before and after the movie. finally managed to get the type of jeans that i was wanted. my first shopping since the start of the great spore sale. haha. well, hadn't got much dough with me so gotta really watch how i spend. next item to get is a pair of shoes. hehe. real tired the whole day. didn't really sleep well cause went drinking last night. been drinking for the past few days. don't really know what's got into me. but guess i enjoyed the sessions very much. but i'm gonna watch my drinking blige if not gonna get a cooked liver. haha. aitey peeps. gotta hit the sack yea. having a headache now. sighz.

peace out~

2007-06-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

070107... 3 more days to the big day. finally can have some time to enjoy myself. gonna go drinking and playing later on. yea. with all my parade peeps. hehe. this is the first time whereby so many people are going out. hope it's gonna be fun. hehe. aite peeps. gonna bathe and head out to party!! ciaoz...

2007-06-24T04:10:00.000+08:00

oritey, some updates. been drinking like mad for the past 2 nights. partly due to certain issues happening around me and another part is cash flow problems. sighs. not in the best of mood in recent days. hope will change asap. sighz. everything's so screwed. gotta see how it goes. ciaoz.

2007-06-13T20:36:00.000+08:00

oh boy. was it a damn busy week for me. been having parede rehearsals everyday this week. totally shagged out. hehe. wanna get it over and done with. sighs. gonna be totally worked out week in week out, 7 days a week man. freak it. think that's my life for now. gonna work hard for the cold hard cash to support my liabilities. with little time to enjoy. meantime also gonna find more job offers. heehee. money's so so hard to earn now yea.

5 more friggin' months and i'll be officially a civilian. yea. that's the time where problems and obstacles will arise. hope i can clear them as they come along. gotta think real carefully about my future now. needa decide which direction i should go. in such a dilemma now. hate to make such big decisions. haha. sounds a girl whining. heh. anyway, looking forward to weekends now if there's anything for me to look forward in the first place. haha. ciaozy

2007-06-08T10:31:00.000+08:00

aitey. just back from my unit's run over at east coast park. boy, was it a tough one. cause haven't been exercising that much nowdays. hehe. been trying to find back my stamina if i had one in the first place. haha. aite then. gonna be real busy over the next few weeks with parades coming up one after another. will have very little time to enjoy or relax myself. sighz. looking forward to another overseas trip maybe at the end of july to get a break. haha. so now here i am slacking home while waiting for time to pass by. actually got a few things to settle but guess shall do it later. heh. that's me manz. mr procrastinator. haha. sighz. shall blog again when there's time peepz. meantime, peace out~

"there's always a rainbow after a heavy storm."

2007-06-04T02:09:00.001+08:00

worked real hard over the past 2 days,
didn't have much time to play,
when the time finally arrived,
enjoyment is what i have.

2007-05-31T23:30:00.001+08:00

Transformers

2007-05-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

back blogging manz. been busy with don't-know-what-i'm-busy-with stuffs. haha. but glad that the dust has settled down. just had a long day coaching today from 9am to 7pm. pure shagness manz. the sun's killing me. getting baked every saturday. sooner or later i might get skin cancer. sighz. needa get sun block and anti-ageing cream soon. haha. i've been looking too old for my age. haha. wrinkles are sprouting out here and there. but been enjoying what i've been doing for my saturdays even though it's no life. hehe. arghz. shan't blog anymore. my face's burning now. aite peepz. ciaozy!

2007-05-14T15:17:00.000+08:00

hi all, just got back from the lil road trip i had over the weekend. damn was it fun man. it started in the wee hours of sat morning. went to pick my navigator over at his gf's place then off we went to malaysia. everything was normal from singapore to malaysia. but once we hit the freeway, that's when the excitement came in. the freeway do not have any street lamps along it as compared to singapore's brightly lit up roads. everything was pitch black when we switched off the headlamps of the car. the journey was fun even though both of us were real tired. kept driving around 80 to 90km/h. dare not go faster as i was unfamilier with the roads and there small animals running across the road. was supposed to catch the ferry at around 730am but guess we left singapore a lil bit early and ended up at mersing at 5am. so we went to grab a bite and slept in the car while waiting for the ferry. haha. how nice.

took the ferry to pulau besar to meet our friends there. actually, i wasn't intending to go but since it's my friend's birthday, i went to celebrate with him. this trip was very different from the other trips to the island. it's more relaxed as compared to last time. enjoyed everything there. we talked, drank and joked throughout the entire trip. kept suan-ing one another. haha. just pure fun. it's really nice to go on such a trip with a few close friends whereby everyone can talk and share bout things. as usual, i'm always there to donate blood to the local mosquitoes community. haha. had quite a few on my legs and my back too. all of them were big and red. haha. took a pic with the bday boy on the way back. think it's one of the nicest pic i've ever taken. haha. *thick-skinned* almost met with an accident on the way back. was driving on the freeway when suddenly this big truck swerved into our lane. half of the truck was already on our lane and we were travelling at quite a high speed at that time. managed to dodge the oncoming truck in time if not i wouldn't be blogging now. i would be at somewhere waiting for people to burn laptop for me so that i can blog. haha. but what a close call that was. really scared the hell outta me and my friend. haha. but overall, the trip was fun even though i went in a day later. hope everyone enjoyed themselves. aitey then, shall blog again soon. quite tired and 'baked' already.

ciao~

2007-05-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

just got back from coaching. was real tired today cause went out till very 'early' in the morning the day before. but guess it's worth the effort going out till so late. best thing is can't sleep when i reached home. how nice. haha. hope everything is back to normal from last night's events.

went parkway for lunch with loretta. then managed to order my sunglasses. finally, i've bought my sunglasses. hehe. it's a rather old model from oakley. but it's nice on me, according to her. so decided to buy it instead of the newest flak jacket. it's around $60 cheaper than the newest model. hope can get it asap. need it to protect my eyes from constant sunlight during weekends. the glare from the sun is making my teeny weeny eyes smaller. haha.

was supposed to go in malaysia later but guess there're some changes to the plans. haha. shall wait for the confirmation. sighz. just so so bored la.

~adios~

2007-05-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

aitey, just some updates. started coaching at the new place yesterday. damn it was good yea. really enjoyed coaching there even though it's quite tiring. it was a real different experience from where i've coached previously. really liked it there. maybe because i'm the only one coaching there and then no one's around to oversee me. just love the feeling. actually i was starting to lose passion in coaching quite some time back. the feeling just came suddenly. maybe it's due to the events that happened at one of the places i coached that made me feel this way. but after coaching at another place, i started to see things in a different way. then maybe i'm starting to feel enthusiatic bout coaching again. which is good for me cause it's better to see things positively den otherwise. hope i'm able to coach at the place permenantly and earn more money. hehe. currently still considering if i should go for advancement in my coaching line. sighz. shall go ponder bout it then. aite. guess that's all for now. gotta go back coach again.

~chillz~

2007-05-03T01:31:00.001+08:00

"Better Than Me"

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I wouldn't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)

2007-05-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

aitey. back to do some proper blogging. hehe. been busy recently due to certain events happening around me. but guess it's kinda settled now. starting to get tired of things around me. so so in need of a breather or two for me to think about certain issues i have currently. most importantly will be my future. even though i already had plans for it but it's starting to change as time goes by. thus, currently i'm getting disillusioned. really need to do some serious thinking about it. can't go on like this as days goes by.

used to be coaching at ssc on saturdays for the past 2 months but gonna change to a new place soon cause of better incentives. was really comfortable coaching there. learnt alot of things and made new friends but reality do comes in. can't stay at the same place for too long if not it will become stagnant and everyone will be so used to things. it's always hard to take the first step out of one's own comfort zone. just glad that i've made that move cause i wanna try new things and i'll be looking forward to the challenges that i'll face in the new environment.

7 more months to get that friggin' pink ic. just want time to pass quickly so that i can be out of it. life is very very routine for me nowadays. weekdays will be a typical nsf's life while weekends will be packed with classes. can say i've got no life but there's nothing i can do about it since i've got so many liabilities with me. so gotta work hard and earn those S 11s.

moodless to carry on. shall continue another day.

~peace out~

2007-04-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

"What Hurts The Most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

2007-04-17T18:53:00.000+08:00

The Race

3, 2, 1. The buzzer went.
The race has begun.
I kept running and running.
Huffing and puffing along the way.
I though I was in the lead.
With no one in front of me.
Beaming with confidence,
I kept on running.
Suddenly, I tripped and I fell.
I sprawled across the ground.
I tried getting up.
But I can't.
I was badly hurt.
My competitors ran past me in a flash.
I knew I've lost the race.
A very important race.
I've failed.

2007-04-14T20:57:00.000+08:00

I'm here

If you're lost, I'm here to guide you.
If you're sad, I'm here to tickle you.
If you're afraid, I'm here to protect you.
If you're lonely, I'm here to accompany you.
If you're tired, I'm here to massage you.
Whatever things that you may encounter,
I'm here for you, always.

2007-04-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

Just for laughs folks...

FIVE RULES FOR ALL MALES TO HAVE A HAPPY LIFE

1. It's important to have a woman who helps at home, is a good cook, cleans and has a well paid job.

2. It's important to have a woman who can make you laugh and laughs at your jokes.

3. It's important to have a woman who you can trust and who doesn't lie to you.

4. It's important to have a woman who is superb in bed and who likes to be with you.

5. It's very, very important that these four women don't know each other.

2007-03-31T20:40:00.000+08:00

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

2007-03-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

2007-03-16T20:30:00.000+08:00

starting to feel the effect of it,
draining me bit by bit,
wondering how long i could take,
hoping it's not too far ahead.

2007-03-11T04:01:00.001+08:00

a simple man living a simple life seeking plain happiness.

2007-03-02T13:12:00.000+08:00

tired.
exhausted.
shagged out.

FRUITFUL.

2007-02-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

2007-02-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

2007-01-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me! haha. so crappy for me staying home and not celebrating my birthday. wth man. been going out for the past few nights. been crazy drinking. haha. seriously, i gotta stop soon if not i gotta change my liver. hehe. will be going back camp in another few hours time for guard. damn. wth am i doing guard on my birthday? arghz! dammit man.

just realised something these few days. as one gets older and celebrates his birthday, he seeks more for companionship than for presents. to have great company during your birthday is really the best present you can get. even though im at home typing this, i really enjoyed the companionship during the last few nights of madness. thanks peeps.

2007-01-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

damn. been too lazy to blog nowadays and kinda busy with things. anyway, just a short summary of my life so far. got recalled back to camp yesterday. hate the idea of going back camp on a saturday. was on standby for the month and had to be back camp within 1 hr during the recall. thought i was able to reach camp early but in the end, i reached camp like in the 55th min. haha. after reaching camp, went to do what i needed to do and just spend 6 hours waiting for nothing. it's really crap shit. but was kinda worthwhile as we were awarded 2 off days. hehe. this means my off days are increasing. need the off days man. hate staying in camp 5 days a week. damned place.

as usual, went drinking in the night. it was fun. cause my friends and i were celebrating out birthdays. and as usual, we opened 3 bottles of liquor again. haha. think we're gonna be called the 3-bottles-gang cause we've been opening 3 bottles everytime we visit the pub. haha. gotta do something to curb this drinking problem. ain't got the dough to sustain such a lifestyle. haha. where's the cash manz? sighz.

2007-01-04T18:38:00.000+08:00

oritey, been a while since i last blogged properly. hehe. finally, tomorrow is the last day of my camp's parade. it's been tough participating in the parade cause of the rehearsals. damn the rehearsals. make me have the stupid beret tanline. yucks. gotta take some time to tan it back to be the same colour as my face. hehe.

but shortly after the parade, i gotta go outfield. hais. on a sunday night. dammit. haha. but the worst has yet to come. im gonna do guard duty on my birthday! wth! who will do guard duty on their birthday!!! i've spent 1 last year and now this is the 2nd one. arghz! damn! and somemore i'm the standby driver for the month. means i gotta carry the stupid pager around! haha. who still carry a pager nowadays? don't know if i've got a good start to the new year not.

recently, there've been a few things going through my mind, been occupying me for the past few days. hope i can find a solution to them. now what i need most is MONEY!! haha. been trying hard to earn as much money as i can manz. to pay for my bills and etc. im so in debt la! so can some kind soul help me? hee.

2007-01-01T04:15:00.000+08:00

happy 2007 to everyone!

a new year means a new start for those out there

take care & peace out...

2006-12-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

a new year is round the corner, so a new start for me begins.

2006-12-29T13:04:00.000+08:00

drink

drank

DRUNK

2006-12-24T12:44:00.000+08:00

a car is on the way...

2006-12-23T12:13:00.000+08:00

many things been happening recently. as usual, been trying to keep myself busy. meeting up with friends, meeting new friends, chilling and slacking together. it's been a long time since i felt this way. this is then the true me. always in the company of my friends in which i enjoyed it the most.

went drinking last night. it was madness i should say. opened 3 bottles of chivas and it's like only for 8 people. crazy shit right. anyway, shit happens. and now due to the excessive intoxication last night, i'm having a bad headache. hehe. but this is life. enjoyed every moment of last night's blige. a big thank you to all my friends who were there for me during the darkest period in my life. without you guys, i don't think i will be able to continue the way i'm supposed to. i'm really really grateful to all of you. thanks!

2006-12-05T02:16:00.000+08:00

the damage is done
the wounds are deep
shattered pieces lying around
no way to mend back

2006-12-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

one step closer to the edge and i'm about to break...

2006-11-25T14:03:00.000+08:00

some people keep asking me how i can keep smiling all the time whenever i see them. the answer is i'm also not sure how i did that. have been through lots of things recently, most of them are shitty. it has been the lowest point of my 22 years of life, but i'm glad that it's finally over. just hope that i can really move on from there. been going on well i should say. trying to keep myself busy with things. been taking up more classes so that i can earn more money and also take my mind of some things that have been occupying me. hope i can be back to my old self again. always smiling and putting a smile on people's faces. :)

2006-11-22T19:24:00.000+08:00

hypocrites

backstabbers

LIARS

why do such people exist in this world?

2006-11-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

What will I do
If I can't be here with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby who I'll be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart
Baby why don't you see
That I need you here with me

2006-11-12T11:29:00.000+08:00

com's down.

luck's down.

finances down.

but something still keeps me going in this life.

2006-11-04T09:53:00.000+08:00

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder

Wish I never would've said it's over

And I can't pretend that I won't think about you when I'm older

Cause we never really had our closure

This can't be the end

2006-10-27T20:03:00.000+08:00

i've brought all this upon myself.... fuck my life... fuck everything...
goodbye everyone... take care

2006-10-27T19:32:00.000+08:00

fark this hypocritical world

far away

2006-10-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go

2006-10-23T12:32:00.000+08:00

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going...

2006-10-21T18:37:00.000+08:00

an easily contented guy feeling happy today

2006-10-13T11:54:00.000+08:00

it is a torture for two who loves each other to be seperated.

2006-10-09T19:07:00.000+08:00

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it get hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it's only you and me

what's love?

2006-10-08T09:13:00.000+08:00

can anybody tell me how to have a long lasting relationship without quarrels? i doubt anyone can. or in the first place, is it possible to have a relationship that can go on smoothly with both parties loving each other? i doubt so. there will be a point in the relationship that you will find is getting stagnant, it's just not going anywhere. it's a point whereby the love starts to fade and there isn't any sparks left in the relationship. nobody knows why a relationship will come to such a stage except for the two involved. how to salvage it? i don't know either. i think whenever a problem occurs, both parties need to sort it out and talk about it together asap. and not delay the problem until it accumulates to a bigger one. if both parties constantly communicate, i guess there should not be much of an issue. at the same time, one can't think too far when in a relationship. it will just catch the other half by surprise. they should just take one step at a time, spending time together and see how they can enrich the relationship. they also shouldn't set plans or goals for the other half. it will just turn him or her off. thinking that they should follow whatever you say. in other words, you'll be like controlling their lives and not giving them freedom. one need to give each other some breathing space to do the things they want and not suffocate them. as it goes, if the fishing line is too taut, it will snap. this applies to relationship also. if you control him or her too much, one day the line will just snap and everything will be over. one gotta know when to loosen the tension and when to tighten it. maybe it might just work out fine.

[i miss you]

2006-10-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

just a note from my friend's blog: people once say that in your lifetime , you will meet 3. one you love the most, one who love you the most and one who break your heart.

to me, i have met only one. the one i love the most is the one who break my heart.

marksman

2006-09-30T11:35:00.000+08:00

hi guys, just took marksmanship test 2 days ago. was happy that i got marksman cause it means extra $200 in my pocket. i wasnt' aiming for the marksmanship badge to be sewn on my shoulder but the cash incentive that comes with it. able to get $200 just by shooting some targets is just so easy. luckily for me, there wasn't any technical glitches during my shooting. everything went smoothly for me. but my friends weren't that smooth. they had lots of problems during shooting which hampers their chance of getting that $200. that's simply just bad luck for them.

got back home damn late this morning. went for a couple of drinks with my fren and then headed down to devils bar to check it out. by the time we got to devils, it's so quiet. not much of a crowd around. sad case. but drank quite a lot last night. don't know why i kept drinking also. maybe due to what's happening to me nowadays. but i hope this will be the last time i'll be doing that. cause it's just too harmful to me. hehe.

love

2006-09-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

can anyone explain what love is? i guess no one knows the answer. when 2 person fall in love with one another, will they mind about the background of the other? will they mind about their past? everyone has a past, be it good or bad. bad ones people will tend to forget it and move on, not letting it affect thier future. good ones will be kept in memory by them. i guess some people do, some don't. but if they truly love one another, such issues would not be a problem. to love someone so deeply, one can forget bout himself, can forget bout his friends as the love of his life has arrived. he will then spend his time cultivating the love, cherishing it, trying his best not to damage it. letting it grow day by day, protecting it from all kinds of negative effects. but as everyone knows, it takes 2 hands to clap. besides him putting in so much effort, the other half also have to do the same, if not it will be a one sided relationship. and also, you can't change the other party to change his or her ways to suit you. both parties have to compromise on such things if not either one will be hurt in the long run. people may think as long as both parties love one another, they will be happy together. actually, to be happy together takes time. and inevitably, there will be hiccups in a relationship. there is no relationship that is perfectly smooth sailing. there will be bound to be quarrels, arguements between both parties. these are the tests that each relationship has to undergo. if they passed these tests, their relationship will thus, be stronger and the bond will be closer. and also, never take one another for granted. cherish what you have, never letting them go. to love & to be loved is a great feeling.

nice song

2006-09-22T12:45:00.000+08:00

SHAYNE WARD
"Stand By Me"

Nothing's impossible
Nothing's unreachable
When I am weary
You make me stronger
This love is beautiful
So unforgetable
I feel no winter cold
When where together
When were together

[chorus]
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder

This love wont fade away
And through the hardests days
I'll never question us
You are the reason
Why only reason

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

I am blessed
To find what I need
In a world loosing hope
Yuor my only belive
You make things right
Everytime after time

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

[Repeat chorus]

Stand by me
No more darlin I want you by my side
I want you hear with mee

off day

2006-09-22T11:45:00.000+08:00

here i am, blogging again. took leave today cause needa clear some of my annual leave and also to get away from work. feeling pretty bored though with nothing to do.

been pondering about my life after ns. currently i have no idea of what i'm gonna be doing after ns cause it may seem to far for me to plan or i'm just lazy to plan ahead. actually been thinking of being a pe teacher cause there's this teaching spirit in me. or rather i just like to be in the company of children. please, don't get mistaken for me being a paedophile. i'm not that kinda person. i really enjoy being in the company of children. they seem to be in a world of no worries. they do not need to worry about if there's enough money for them to spend, don't needa worry about their other half, don't needa worry about what they're gonna eat for their meals. cause everything will be prepared by either by their maids or by their parents. children nowadays are too pampered, spoilt. they just wanna get everything that's new in the market or things that they like it at first sight. but they do not have any idea how hard it is to earn those money to buy those 'wants' of theirs. *sighz* just really admire kids nowadays. how i wish i was a kid all over again. with no worries and stuffs. and i know i can be well taken care of. by the way, being in the company of children makes me feel younger too. hehe.

getting sick of the things at work. workplace is a world where only hypocrites, backstabbers survive. those who are not good at such skills usually failed badly. everything is just so hypocritical. everyone is covering their backs. no one wants to come forward and do the things that are required to be done. all they know is to point fingers or act blur. what the hell man. people always say when guys go into serving the nation, their thinking & thoughts will mature. they will be more of a matured person. to hell to the one who said that. guys who are serving are still as childish as ever. they do not think bout the big picture but only themselves. ya selfish people. they can't do the task first then questions later. they always questions first den avoid the task. practically bullshit man. it's a dog eat dog world. can call me a loner or what. but so far since i got into my new workplace, i do not have much friends to confide in. cause i do not know if they're there for real or just hiding a knife behind their back while talking to me. everytime gotta be on high alert. just tough trying to survive in such an environment. *sighz* but i know my dear baby will always be there for me. encouraging me, supporting me. that's what i need the most from her now. thank you baby.

the return

2006-09-22T02:51:00.000+08:00

it's been a long while since i last blogged. didn't have the mood to blog or whatever reasons. changed the outlook of my blog in the wee hours of the night cause i can't get to sleep. pretty sad ya. haha.

been kinda busy with my involvement in serving the nation. it's been 10 months since i got enlisted. to say it's a long period, it's not. to say it's a short one, it's not. but what i know is that i still have another 14 more months to get out of that shithole. hope i can persevere till then.

recently there're some hiccups in my relationship with my dear baby. don't know what's wrong also. but will try to get it solved asap so that i can move on together with her. *sighz*

as usual i'm always broke. just can't seem to manage my finances well. when pay comes in on the 10th, i'll be left with less than half by the 12th. i'm clueless on how i spend my money so quickly man. SOMEBODY HELP ME!!! heh.

aite guys, think that's for it. don't know what i've been blogging either. just don't have the mood to do anything. *sighz* gotta hit the sack!

2005-10-12T12:02:00.000+08:00

finally, im back again... after such a LONG LONG LONG absence from the scene.... haha... i apologise for dat.... been idiling ard for the past few mths... waiting for dat letter from army... & finally it arrived... haha.... i'll be enlisting on 2 DEC 2005 at 9.45am at the greenie island... haha... some might tink enlisting into army is bad.. but to me is good cuz im so blardy old oredi manz.. better faster go in... next, i passed my final theory test yst.... yea yea... going to learn how to drive soon... hope can finish by the time i go army.... heh... dats all for nw... shall blog again soon... ciaoz