here i am, blogging again. took leave today cause needa clear some of my annual leave and also to get away from work. feeling pretty bored though with nothing to do.
been pondering about my life after ns. currently i have no idea of what i'm gonna be doing after ns cause it may seem to far for me to plan or i'm just lazy to plan ahead. actually been thinking of being a pe teacher cause there's this teaching spirit in me. or rather i just like to be in the company of children. please, don't get mistaken for me being a paedophile. i'm not that kinda person. i really enjoy being in the company of children. they seem to be in a world of no worries. they do not need to worry about if there's enough money for them to spend, don't needa worry about their other half, don't needa worry about what they're gonna eat for their meals. cause everything will be prepared by either by their maids or by their parents. children nowadays are too pampered, spoilt. they just wanna get everything that's new in the market or things that they like it at first sight. but they do not have any idea how hard it is to earn those money to buy those 'wants' of theirs. *sighz* just really admire kids nowadays. how i wish i was a kid all over again. with no worries and stuffs. and i know i can be well taken care of. by the way, being in the company of children makes me feel younger too. hehe.
getting sick of the things at work. workplace is a world where only hypocrites, backstabbers survive. those who are not good at such skills usually failed badly. everything is just so hypocritical. everyone is covering their backs. no one wants to come forward and do the things that are required to be done. all they know is to point fingers or act blur. what the hell man. people always say when guys go into serving the nation, their thinking & thoughts will mature. they will be more of a matured person. to hell to the one who said that. guys who are serving are still as childish as ever. they do not think bout the big picture but only themselves. ya selfish people. they can't do the task first then questions later. they always questions first den avoid the task. practically bullshit man. it's a dog eat dog world. can call me a loner or what. but so far since i got into my new workplace, i do not have much friends to confide in. cause i do not know if they're there for real or just hiding a knife behind their back while talking to me. everytime gotta be on high alert. just tough trying to survive in such an environment. *sighz* but i know my dear baby will always be there for me. encouraging me, supporting me. that's what i need the most from her now. thank you baby.